My Dirty Little Secret

I have a dirty secret… It is something that I hate to admit to anyone, but yes, I do this crime multiple times and am still committing it over and over again.

NAIINGIT AKO.

Yup, that’s true.

• Naiinggit ako don sa fellow ESL teacher ko who happens to have the same age as mine but she’s earning 6 digits per month from freelancing.
• Naiinggit ako doon sa kakilala ko na may 20k followers na Facebook and Instagram, earning and providing food on the table from her digital content.
• Naiinggit ako don sa batchmate ko na may successful dessert business and parang every year nagkakaroon ng additional business pa sya despite having little kids.

At ako, *self-pity* eto lost, confuse, questioning, “bakit ang pait, ang alat naman ng swerte ko?”

So I step back a little and stop sneaking and prying on other people’s lives, then start doing what I think is needed to go further from where I am currently.

Hindi naman talaga sila basta swerte lang, talagang masipag din sila at malakas ang loob. I am sure before they jumped into doing the things they are doing right now for sure natakot din sila, like me.

Kaya narealized ko, hindi talaga tama na mainggit kasi sa tuwing naiinggit tayo para na rin natingkini-kwesyon kung deserve ba nila yung achievements nila.

Narealized ko na they really deserve their achievements because they are hardworking and they are diligent. Ang difference between us? They #PressOn towards their goals, while ako, humihinto, napaparalyzed tuwing dinadaga at nilalamon ng takot.

I realized that my inggit are rooted from my fears.

Takot kasi akong magfail.

Gusto ko kasi sa first attempt ko homerun agad.

Feeling ko kasi this is my last ball on free throw kaya ayokong magmintis.

Without realizing may next season pa pala ng game at may another league pa just in case

So slowly, little by little, i-o-overcome ko yung fears ko, para next time di na ako maiingit.

Di ko na sasabihin na “buti pa sila successful na, ako eto pa din.”

Tara, let’s divert our attention, from inggit to facing our fears, unti-unti di natin mamamalayan may nararating na pala tayo. :)

#Fight

 

My Who's and Why's

Hello! :)

My name is Emem. I am in my early 30s and I am a mother of 4 kids.

My eldest child is 12 yo and my youngest child is 1 yo.

I want to be an influencer but I don’t know how and where to start.

To give you a background of who I am and my why’s, I’d like to share with you my position about where exactly I am in our current digital age.

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I started blogging in 2003, when blogging was my digital diary. I used it to document my life and polish my English skills. In 2007, I signed up using my very first Facebook account and since then I enjoyed scrolling around, sharing and engaging with other people using this platform. I also learned how to create a page, a group and use it to buy and sell. In 2014, I signed up on Instagram and use it for personal and business use too, however, I still feel that I haven’t fully maximized these platforms though I heard that some people earned from blogging, Facebook and Instagram and it kinda intrigues me and it gave me the desire to aspire and become an influencer wishing that someday this would put food on our table.

Well, I am not only after the “possible” income that I could get if I succeed in monetizing my digital content but throughout the years, I realized that blogging and social media became a part of me. Honestly, it is very difficult for me to go on in a day without checking my Facebook or Instagram. I can’t also go on in a day without engaging, commenting, sharing my experiences and having a good conversation with a stranger on the internet.

I am a comfortable to say though, that yes, my digital properties are extension of who I am, it just me, my mind, my heart on this digital space. :)

I am writing and posting this as my first blog just in case you love to know who I am and why I am here.

To me, this blog is my creative outlet, my safe space to share my experience with hope to inspire you, women and moms who can resonate with my story.

Hopefully, you’ll find something that is enjoyable and helpful to you on this digital space.

I would love to hear your thoughts. Do you also want to earn online? Share your thoughts on the comment box below. Come visit anytime! :)